Eyes In The Mirror

They say the eyes are the portal to the soul.
I know this to be true.
For I can see the truth within myself in mine own eyes.

In one eye I see the bright light of love.
Reminding me of the man I can be.
The man I should be.
It guides me down the right path, the path of light.

The other eye showing the dark desires of my soul.
Burning deep within me
Showing me what I'm capable of.
The moments when I let my desires take control.

I wish it were as easy as closing one eye.
I wish I could simply choose which eye to follow.
But both eyes are open.
They both see the world.

Each eye fights for dominance.
Trying to pull my soul towards a version of myself that could be.
Sometimes one eye wins.
Sometimes the other.

Oh yes I know how clear the portals to my soul are.
Were one looking they could read me like a book.
My eyes telling the stories of my actions.
Penning my actions like a story to my soul.

When I look into my own soul I see both sides.
I know them both well.
I know the looks, the tells.
They are a part of me.

They are two sides of my same coin.
Constantly battling, Constantly struggling.
I know not how to conclude this fight, and fear that the conclusion would not be the outcome i desire.

I wish I were stronger,
Capable of deciding the outcome on my own.
But this battle is the battle fought by my life.
By the the very flow of events transpired.

Only time will tell which version will prevail
Which version of myself will complete it's control
They are both me, yet only half Of the whole
The two separate, yet very much the same.

I need a light, I need a guide
Someone to lead me through my fog filled soul.
To lead me to the light. To love.
To fight beside me against my poisoned half.

I hope someday I'll find that strength, that will to crush the darkness
To take full control of my being and my destiny
I hope that day comes soon.