I Am Jumbled

At this moment now, I am tired and jumbled up in my head. There are so many things that I have bouncing around in my head that not a single one can actually be concentrated on. Even writing this post is taking all of my concentration not to go off on some side track of meaningless babble that has no relevance to anything in particular. Its like an extreme case of ADD and im too tired to figure out what im thinking about and yet im not yet tired enough to fall asleep. So here I am, killing time and trying to tire myself out by putting my thoughts into writing. Its a soothing thing to write for me. To put into a formal medium that which I have inside myself. In my head it just bounces around and takes no coherent shape but here...here it can become so much more. It becomes a flowing idea. Like an ocean of thoughts that is narrowed out and becomes a river, forging a path all its own. So many times when I start a blog about a certain idea it goes in many directions that I never initially meant for it to go. Like a river finding the path of least resistance. One second I could be talking about how superpowers could have levels or variances on them and the next is a list of reasons that superpowers would never work. Had I continued it may have gone in a completely different direction that would have left me wondering how I got there from such a basic starting point. But then again, dont all great ideas start like that. Tonight being a grand example. In the 5 minutes that i've been writing this blog I went from having a mind filled with twenty different ideas and trains of thought to about 5. With any luck, if I continue to write I will narrow that number to the minimal amount of ideas ever present in my head, that number being 3. The 5 ideas are as follows. 1. why did work last so long 2. i wonder how my best friends night was 3. i wonder how that party was 4. what do i want to spend the money i made tonight on 5. work tomorrow is going to come too early and 6 (being one that just came to mind) my financial aid refund comes next week hoorayy. I guess you could say its the rather severe case of ADHD I have that my mind goes in so many directions at one time and some may wonder if such a thing causes problems for me....yes sometimes it does. Sometimes I love it though because I never get bored just thinking about stuff. Each of those things takes its own direction in my mind and I end up thinking about a lot of stuff. I think thinking is good. It cant be bad. Where would the world be without thought, and trains of thought for that matter. What if Einstein had simply stopped at E=. Where would we be. Thought is good and by ipso-facto blogging is good, because blogs are the thoughts of people. My brain is quiet now so I think ill go to sleep now. Goodnight world. Until you stir me from slumber with another exciting day of thinking.