Oh what a night

As I sit in front of my house listening to my friends play drinking games, I feel myself filled with many different emotions and my mind filled with many different things.
So many different types of people are there. So many different life experiences fill the room. Young, old, wise, foolish, experienced, naive. All present, all sharing in wonderful friendship and fellowship with one another. My father often speaks about how my generation just "hangs out" or "chills" in a way that is borderline negative. As if these seemingly pointless moments aren't going to the memories that we hold onto for the rest of our lives. I love just "hanging out" with these people. They make my heart happy when I'm around them, there's no way that could be negative. The fact of the matter is we are in the last stage of our lives where just hanging out is permissible and has no consequences. Sure you can still hang out as adults, but the things in our lives become more serious from here on out and the ability to have a night to literally just kick back and play a drinking games is fleeting. It won't be long before a late night is 12 o'clock. I dread those times and hope I can fill my remaining time of college with as many nights like to tonight as I can.
My mind then wandered over to matters of the heart. What makes people attracted to someone. Is there some formula for chemistry between two people? There have been times recently when I believed that I'd found the chemistry I was looking for. The peaceful yet exciting chemistry that breeds long term relationships that help define you. Times I felt that maybe this person is someone I could be with and invest in. But with many of those cases there is always something that is in the way. Whether it be red flags of personality traits, different views on important matters, the distance between us, sticky bro code violations, or whatever. Something always stands in the way. Is that the universe saying in a subtle way "hey not this person", or is that more the universe giving me challenge. A challenge of finding something worth fighting for and then actually fighting for them. I suppose some would say if its not worth fighting for its not worth it in the first place. But who's to say that the person I choose would be the right one. It's a struggle every person has to deal with and one I know isn't really worth complaining about, yet I still find myself thinking often of how to fix it. Luckily I know WHAT im looking for now I just have to FIND it. Such is life I suppose.